Spring is here!

I need some sun! I can't wait for summer and for my summer body. Going to visit my Mom in sunny southern California in July and I hope to be at my goal weight by then. I want to wear a bikini again!

Feeling good about this!

My feelings about this in the beginning were not that positive but in the last couple weeks I am finally seeing some weight and body changes that are making me really happy!

Feeling alot better about this!

I am still not seeing crazy results but my bad habits are getting much easier to control and doing the good things are feeling much more natural. A little bit more exercise and in a month I should start seeing more results!

Weekends Kill My Diet!

Woo hoo I made it four days to the gym last week. Ate good all week then ka blam the weekend came and so did my bad eating habits. I am now so much better at work because I am busy pounding water and eating my healthy snacks I bring from home. I have found a good solution to the mid-day chocolate craving I have (60 calorie mousse pudding). I think the midnight snacking has stopped however sometimes I do it without even realizing, but there has been no food remnants on the counter when I wake up so that's a good sign. Just now looking for a good solution to weekends with the family you know pizza Friday and movie night Saturday and birthday party Sunday!!! Going to try and get at least 4 days in at the gym again this week but this week is looking a little crazy...wish me luck!

Comfort food!

I was doing so good and then that special time came...and its been all down hill. I have been eating a lot of fruit which is good but too much cheese and chocolate!! I need some low calorie, low fat treats (excluding Jello & Pudding) for this special time. Any suggestions??

Ugh!

Wow what a month! I hope I loose at least one lb. this month, I do feel like mentally I am headed in the right direction I just need to physically get there. I got some good workout videos that I really like and one night did a hardcore weight workout on my own. Not so good the next day for I almost had to call into work because I was pretty much immobile. Thanks to my boyfriend I was able (with his help) to sit on the toilet. I have a really volatile, obsessive relationship with my scale and I am about to dump it...out the $u&%$g window. At this point I am praying I loose at least 1 lb by weigh-in day. Bigger hopes next month :(

I Can Do This!

I can do this...I can do this...I can do this...Almost done with this month and I am feeling a little discouraged. Two crazy weeks at work totalling over 100 hours making it really hard to get to the gym. I made it once last week and once this week hopefully going tomorrow making it twice this week. I ate really well but I am really not seeing any difference in the scale. I need to stay off that thing its almost obsessive. Since my major projects at work are over I am hoping to get more time at the gym.

Healthy back into my life that is....

Ok every day I ask myself how did I get like this? How did I let this happen? This is so not me or maybe it is...I have been this way for 2 years now. I went from years of fluctuating 2-3 lbs to 20 -25 lbs!! I can't blame it on the baby he is four now and I only gained 29 lbs during the pregnancy and was my skinniest ever months after he was born.

Then I started my NEW JOB ugh! 8 hours a day in an office only to get up maybe once for my fat girl lunch, plus I work with 50 of the best bakers in America who bribe me with food to do their job.

I also blame it on the East Coast when I moved here from California I was like Mayo?? what's that? Sausage egg and cheese...disgusting! I stayed strong for about 2 years and then I adapted.."I'll take a double egg, double cheese on a hard roll please". I definitely can't blame it on my boyfriend Peter who works out 5 days a week and has a compulsive shopping habit for mirrors...oh and who also bought me a training package for Christmas!

What matters now is I am approaching 29 and can't imagine spending the last year of my twenties this big! I am going to go back to my old way of thinking and with a little help from friends, family and the gym (thanks Peter) hopefully I can accomplish my goal!